Are you uncomfortable yet?

I've got a question:

Do you love this God who is everything,

or do you just love everything He gives you?

I read this from a book almost 4 weeks ago and my answer to this question was: I love all the blessings God gives me and the wonderful life he has provided, but I haven't pulled my head off cloud 9 to realize my relationship is about who God is. After even further thought I realized I haven't spent much time in the past year and a half (since accepting Christ) searching for answers to who God is. When I would get in the Word it would be about reading passages that applied to my life. Or what I felt like reading. Why didn't I think to learn about my heavenly Father, the most important love of my life? (arrogance, among many other things) The scary thing is why did it take me this long for me to open my eyes to what I've been missing this whole time?

Our lives are so comfortable its disgusting.

So I took that question to heart and tried to discover who God is. For me that looked like:

reading more out of the old testament..

studying the Bible with diligence (since I don't know it very well, it's incredibly fun to actually study the Bible like schoolwork: making connections in parables as well as trying to tie everything I read to my life!)

purposely trying to clean up my heart in order to become filled with the Spirit..

and trying to make things as uncomfortable as I can just so I can feel more needy and reliant on God's direction..

Mix all of the above together and the transformation was probably the greatest thing that has happened in my spiritual journey so far. I can't describe much more besides that because there are no words; it's a feeling I pray others can discover for themselves.

I will say that I delight in waking up every morning in this temporary home as another day to serve and love my Lord. His will is my command and it's out of my love for God that I choose to act and speak. Now I love my Father for who He is as well as the abundance He has given me.