I realized my 10 steps forward led me back to square one. I’ve seen success in overcoming certain strongholds in my life throughout the past 4 months, and then a whole new can of worms was opened. As much as it sucks, and it’s hard… I can’t help but love and embrace what God has planned for me. I thought I was walking with the Lord, but I finally recognized the things this world and Satan were fogging my mind with. A friend once told me, we should be walking stride by stride with the Lord. It does us no good to get ahead of Him then look back for his reassurance, and it does us no good to drag behind with Him out of reach. God should be RIGHT THERE in every aspect of our lives. Imagine if we went a day constantly praying [1 Thessalonians 5:17] God what should I be saying here? What should I be doing here? How can I use this situation to glorify you? How can I pray for this person? Give me the desires of my heart.
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As I began this blog on the night before New Years Eve I realized that every plan I had made for New Years was selfish and sinful. Thank you God for revealing to me the true motives of my heart. Now that I have a new laundry list of things to overcome, where can I begin? Patience and endurance are about to become my best friends that’s for sure. Meditating on these two verses has really given me strength this morning:
“So be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you have to endure
many trials for a little while. These trials will show that your faith is
genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold—though your faith is
more precious than mere gold. So when your faith remains strong through
many trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when
Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world.”
1 Peter 1:6
“Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.”
So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ
can work through me. That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in
the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For
when I am weak, then I am strong.”
2 Corinthians 12:9
So now it’s my move, I have fallen 10 steps back, but the game is far from over. All I can do now is pray for openness to His Word and the willingness to change. I am so thankful for this life You have given me Lord. I share this all in Your Name.
xoxo
